IVF-ing Pregnant

This past week has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. Wednesday, I woke up and just knew I shouldn't go to work, but I am a bit of a stubborn work-a-holic, so I went in anyway after my blood test. Waiting is just the worst, I knew it would be about 4 hours until I got the call, so I tried not to think about it and went on with my day. Around 10:15, my nurse, Amy called and I could already hear it in her voice, "I'm so sorry, Julie, but its negative..." All I could say was, "okay". She also said there was a chance the numbers could go up, but it wasn't likely and I was to continue to take my meds and get more blood work on Friday. When I calmed myself down a little, I called Jason and told him the news. He was at home sick, so he was already pretty down, and this awful news didn't help one bit, I could tell on the phone that he was heartbroken. I didn't know what else to say so I got off the phone and finished what I was working o...

I am an IVF-ing nervous wreck right now! There are roughly 14 1/2 hours left until I go in for my blood test and then I have to wait for the phone call from the office. Que Eric Church's "Two Pink Lines". I have spent the last 4 or 5 days over analyzing every little out of the ordinary feeling in my body. I am over tired, slightly bloated and crampy, tired, and today my boobs started hurting and I got really excited. Did I mention tired? My dog, Mollie has also been glued to my side. Maybe she knows something I don't or maybe she just smells all the extra progesterone in my body from the shots and suppositories. Oh yes the Progesterone Suppositories. Nasty little thing I have to shove up my vag every night and then lay still hoping it doesn't all come out. AS you can tell I am not a fan, but know its necessary. Today is day 7 post transfer, and if everything went as planned, the embryo is fully implanted in my uterine lining and beginning to secrete HCG into my ...

Well Tuesday was the big day! As expected, I was up at 5:30 in the morning, because you know, excitement or nerves I guess. At 10 am I went to my acupuncture appointment. I have been so grateful for those appointments. I don't know if it has had any effect on my insides, but it definitely put my mind at ease. I am very much an over thinker, but I have been able to let things go a little easier and not freak out about every little thing that comes my way. Some people so acupuncture is just a placebo effect, but I think I'm a believer. After my appointment, I came home and made the office a Hummingbird cake. It helped take my mind off everything that was about to happen. My appointment was at 2:30. It seemed to be a quiet day at the office and they took me back right away. Everyone was very excited about the cake, and they all absolutely loved out shirts I had made. (Pictures to come later) So we went back to the bay and I was given a volume and put on a very stylish gown. ...

Back from vacation and ready to get this done! Our trip to Austin, TX was planned as something to look forward to if our fresh transfer didn't work, or as a nice babymoon if it did. It really worked out that it was a relaxing getaway to take our minds off everything before. Everything seems to be falling into place. Today I went back to the doctor for a lining check and another round of intralipids. My lining was right where it is supposed to be, so I wont need another ultrasound, and if you remember from last time, the Intralipids are an infusion that kills all the killer cells in my uterus so the embryo will stick. I have been trying to make a good home in there for my little embaby. I have been drinking a lot of water and Raspberry Leaf Tea which is really supposed to help. Starting tomorrow, I am going to try to eat as healthy as possible; I am going to at least try to incorporate avocado into at least 1-2 meals a day. Tomorrow is my last Lupron injection and then I sta...